Just having time

I'm here again sitting on front of the PC oh! what new I have spent a good part of my time in front of it since I got at school, I had already planned go out with my friends this weekend and get drunk as yesterday jajaja, but I decided to keep at home and give me a time for myself I think I deserve it, I need to write again, I needd time for me and keep me alone cause as a friend said once "you're just a dreamer" and as another one said "to dream is the first step to open your wings and start fly" I'd like to have a friend next to me and tell him the things that have been happening for ask his point of view like a man, to ha ve a friend and tell 'er for ask a different light in my brain, cause I'm just trying to do the best, but first I need to find me, find my soul and wishes, goals, problems and weaknesses cause I'm affraid of doing a bad choice, but I cannot just watch my life going away from me and do not anything.
I need to be honest sometime as right now I'm tired of fighting agains the things that does not seem to me correct, but I know that I have no right to leave my beliefs, I have been hit by the life on those days. I bealive fight for something that Ithink is the best but I feel like if I were tethered with a rope, but this situation is starting to get tierd me I'm fed up.
Is for the same reason that I decided to move now, to tell them I'm alive I cannot accept that other decide my future by politics relationships, I now convineces that I was conduced by a good leader but she is not so strong as she should, so I've already decide to fiight, I don´t care my paycheck in the school, hard situations requires hard desitions, I'm decided to not obey my commitment of friend, I'm sorry for not follow your orders but if I continue following your orders you're condemn us to disappear but I'm here, I'm exist and here exist too much people for rising my guard.
So here is the plan is working right now, I 'm gonna start a URL to do research, as UACH (if they don't agree they can go to hell, I'll do it as UDLA) so I´hope to see Verónica or Tete as UDLA, Albert is enrolled as exa UVM and UDLA too, Luis I know is for ITP and UACH, I hope a friend that I don't know yet accept she'll be for tha ITAM, I don´t care until where I must go, but If they say no, is impossible is cause they never have seen it, I think they say it to the worng person nobody is going stop me, I'm decide to do it, just wait for news....