Una semana dificil

Vaya que ha sido una semana del nabo, de las peores de mi vida segun recuerdo, la nota de la semana se la lleva el hecho que me la soltaron ais sin avisar y agua va pues ya no hay boda, ya no me caso y no solo eso mi relacion terminó y por desgracia no en los términos que me hubiese gustado. La verdad me mandaron a hacer nuevo que friega me acomodo, yo no decidí terminar esto pero bueno, lo único que puedo decir es que me agrego al club de lso amargados jajaja, y como dice el master que buenas mamadas se avientan las viejas, pero en fin.
Por otro lado comento que estoy llendo con una psicóloga bastante buena a mi ver me ha ayudado bastante, la misma que saco al master el agujero, osea que ya tiene experiencia en estos casos.
dentro del reporte semanal puedo decir el viernes fui a una quinceañera invitado por una alumna, latente novia o canco del Master pero no mames, primero llegue y me sinti offside de plan fuera del lugar, y ademas pinche fiesta naca, como les dije a los cuates nomas faltan los tendederos en el jardin español, resulta que la festejada bailo como cenicienta con al apa, la ama, el tio, el abuelo , la abuela y cuanto pendejo se arrimo de la familia. Luego que termina ese rito tan tedioso, segundo acto de la obra (a estas alturas me sentia disfrutando un espectaculo lindo y digno del palacio de bellas artes (todo amenizado por banda creo pancho villa y los negritos incansables o sea los discos) pues estabamos aca y zas segundo acto sale la novia (perdon quince araña) bailando regeton con los chambelanes, puta dije yo, lo que faltaba y zas, luego le cortan y luego ponen el video mamon de las fotos de cuando era bebe y el papa la cargaba, así como si fuera pantalla IMAX; y cuando creia que lo habia visto todo, porque a estas alturas me sentia como en broadway con tremendo espectaculo; que sale la quinceañera vestida como flor silvestre con el show de Antonio Aguilar aca bailando danza folklorica, y yo digo no mamen, ya les faltaron los caballos al menos a los hombres ( a las mujeres pos no supe) luego yo con mi cara demonios me quiero ir me quieor ir que cosa mas nefeasta acabo de presenciar y lo mas indignante es compartir el oxigeno con esas personas, bueno lo siguiente se los pongi en una version 2.0 porque tengo sueño, tengo una entrevista mañana luego les sigo contando

Me robaron las palabras

Simplemente las cosas son tal cual son escritas por Chris Martin.

And the hardest part
Was letting go, not taking part
Was the hardest part

And the strangest thing
Was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet, I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining the cloud
Oh and I
I wish that I could work it out

And the hardest part
Was letting go, not taking part
You really broke my heart

And I tried to sing
But I couldn’t think of anything
And that was the hardest part

I could feel it go down
You left the sweetest taste in my mouth
You're a silver lining the clouds
Oh and I
Oh and I
I wonder what it’s all about
I wonder what it’s all about

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do, it's just comes undone
And everything is torn apart

Oh and it’s the hardest part
That’s the hardest part
Yeah that’s the hardest part
That’s the hardest part

Imposible no escucharla y sentirme desgarrado por dentro

For all my friends

I'm sorry if I'm still writing in English, I know since I made a private blog I swore I wouldn’t again, but at this time is almost impossible for me do it in my main language, this is something too hard for me and too painful too, I’m writing, and my heart is really broken and I’m doing it by the time that a couple of tears are running over my cheeks but is impossible to me keep’em inside, I need to throw up all this anger, loneliness and pain out of myself.

I do not what should I do when my life has been torn apart, but for my friends in the blog just let me tell you she’s not ready right now to get married and the wedding has been cancelled, the only thing that I know is that this night will be another one with insomnia, and maybe then tomorrow I’ll see a better day, thanks for the beers and all the calls that I have received thanks they have helped me a lot.

Sergio

Acabado pero aun en pie

Después de la charla de hoy hace unas horas puedo decir que estoy moralmente acabado, aun sigo en pie, al final de todo me siento traicionado por una parte y esto se va al punto donde no hay regreso, todo fue claro, mañana ire por una cervezas con el M4st3r X, y pasado mañana cerraran las negociaciones, francamente no pienso prolongarlas mas porque me están haciendo mucho daño, y de las cuales puedo adelantar que mi mochila se prepara para viajar, y a empezar a buscar empleo en Chihuahua o ya en el D.F. la Uach se terminó, así las cosas, veamos que pasará.

my last public post

I'm writing this lines maybe, nobody can understand how I feel right now, it’s so weird cause, I know I have a lot of wonderful friends, but it’s like part of my life wouldn’t have any sense, I’d really like to run away of my life and take a breath and I don’t know what to do.

I’m scared of what could happen in the future, but I’m starting to worry about my situation because Ain’t a depressive guy everybody who knows me can say that and it’s truth, but yesterday night I was sad feeling me as alone as I’ve never felt in my life, so after think for a couple of hours, I went to sleep, and I remember I was sad in my dreams, and a woke up this morning with that feeling again, I’m thinking on what I’m gonna say or do but I’m sure that it might affect all my life.

I guess I have changed, maybe I’m a worse person than before but, I just think on a speech that says “what for some is a tyrant to others is a hero”. That gives to me a light of in the darkness and that’s true, maybe for some people I became in a worse person, but for another one I just improve and I became a better person.

This situation has me worried because I don’t want that it affects my job, I’m getting to my limits of patience and the final countdown has begun, so it’s time to fill me of courage and affront the truth with no fears to anything.

Some would think I’m an ass (and I am) for writing in English but I think it’s a little private and I wouldn’t share with all, and I need to write, so I’ve been thinking on create another blog with another name or maybe doing this blog private that it is the most probably I will do soon.

About my life

I think in this moment is a little bit hard to try to explain how the life is, a few seconds ago I was not in my best, moment but a friend helped me to find the way again and I said thanks brother.
I was a feeling of lonleyness, but he said you're really alone when you do not accept your own company, and that's true, so the question here is Why did I feel alone? and he asked me again do you feel happy with the things that you're doing uh? I I said of course better than ever so I got the ansewer, I was cause in part by social pressure what the world expect of me whay they want I do, What supposed I must do. But it's time to say enough!, I 'll do all the things what I want akk the things I've dreamed cause I'm free! and I will not accept any social presure anymore cause nobody is goingo tell how I should live, how I 'd spent my time, my life who cares if I'm wasting it?, it is my life and the first thins is the MUST respect my decisions without expect anything, cause I will do only one thing, to live my life, cause it is mine